The Good...

I am a Virgo. I like organized, predictable routine in life. I am open to spontaneity, but only a little bit, and as long as it is pleasant. I guess nobody likes unpleasant shocks but what I meant was - most people I know, deal with it better than I do. I am 28 years old and till now or till recently I have had what most people would call a 'normal' life. I completed my college all the way till my post graduation, got a job, got married, came to the United States of A...had a bit of ups and downs but mostly had a wonderful time. So what made it abnormal?! That would be my two miscarriages that I have had over the past one year. Not to mention, quitting my job to 'take a break' and the process of trying to conceive again.

I had a really hard time just dealing with the fact that I had absolutely no control over what was happening. Miscarriages can be very painful, both physically and emotionally. I had read and heard 'When you are ready to have a baby, nine months seems really long', and I used to think…well you know its going to take nine months, so why does it seem so long?! But it does and when you add to it the waiting for the good news part...it can seem like eternity. And everybody, including the celebrities seemed to be getting pregnant but you. After eight really long months we finally got the good news - a slightly positive line on the pregnancy test stick. We did it again. Same results. We wondered if there was something like slightly pregnant, but nonetheless we were very happy. I couldn’t wait to tell my friends and family. We went to see a doctor, got blood test and there it was ‘confirmed positive’. We shared the news with some of family and friends. I was officially 6 weeks pregnant.