..the Bad

I turned to the Internet. Made a list of Do(s) and Don’t(s) for myself. Followed it religiously. One of my friends presented me with a copy of What to Expect When You Are Expecting. Seemed like a really good book. Had rave reviews…and she told me it’s the best. But it did not have any answers when I started bleeding. These books seem to be written only for picture perfect pregnancies.

It was only a drop or two but was enough to get me in tears and for my husband to rush me to the emergency. We knew something was not right. It was the Memorial Day weekend. My cousin in Virginia had been rushed to the hospital the same day for her delivery. She has a beautiful baby boy. Nothing came up in my ultrasound. They could neither see the gestational sac nor hear the heartbeat. After 5 long hours, they diagnosed it as a ‘Threatened Miscarriage’. I was told that in the following weeks I would bleed out completely. I had been crying the whole time, and I really did not know what went wrong. All the doctors kept saying sometimes it is for the best and that there was nothing I could have done. In the coming weeks, I would hear this line over and over. But I could not agree with them. I still needed an answer. Much reading made me think that 1) I would go insane this way and 2) Maybe it was a one time incident due to some chromosomal anomalies.

http://www.bellaonline.com/articles/art27561.asp
I thought this will help some other women, who are looking into these issues.