Unresolved

My baby got his first official haircut today:) And he did so well. At just 14 months, he wasn't one bit scared...actually he was just one tiny bit, and then when I held him, he was just fine. We took tons of pics. Normally, I would have come back home, called everyone back home, and naratted the whole event in great detail. But today, I didn't.

For the past couple of months, I have been talking very less with my in-laws. My friend suggested that the best way for me, would be to talk/share less and stay formal but cordial. I try, but I don't know how to do that. I don't really say much when I am formal, it is strictly need to know basis...and I am so sad today, cause I know, they would have loved to hear everything. They might have not liked the haircut, nor the fact that I got it done sooooo short. But they would have for sure loved all the details.

To add to it, the Mother's day is coming up. I feel horrible, when all the ads come up. Even if I call her, and wish her (which I know I will)I will be a mess.

Cooked a lot of food today, that always helps me ease the pain. A loved it all. He saw me crying today, asked me why (he probably knew it was the ads) but I cannot talk abt it anymore. I have nothing new to say...its just that the issues stays unresolved within me.